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Mood:
(YAY)
Music: None.
About time for some of my current favorite pretty girls I've seen around the internet:




Anyways, how cute are THEY? I have my own house. I have my own SHIT. I'm happy, I'm working, but I almost died in a car crash, where I beat my feet legs, arm and head up pretty bad. 60 into a rock face, I fell asleep. I have no time anymore to write, but I will say that I check my myspace more often. Anyways, later.
XOXO -P
Music: Cryptopsy - Dead And Dripping
Mood:
(Sleepy Fucker)
I'm alive. I'm happy. And really not on the internet right now, sorry. I'll write a big ol' damn entry when I get time. Thanks guys!
-Penut
Music: Velvet Acid Christ - Collapsed
Mood:
(Crabby)
When Mega came to see me at work just now you would have thought I would have been happy my old best friend I grew apart from came to see me. Instead, I feel almost ashamed to say I feel abandoned by everyone. All of my friends don't mesh well with me anymore. I feel so much older now, with a rock on my finger, living on your own, working. One of my old friends doesn’t have those concerns right now; She's still looming over another year of high school. I also can't deal with my friends drama. The two faced ways about them is SO fuckin' unnecessary. Every fucking bit of it is damn unnecessary. Who the hell get's bitchy because people wouldn't walk directly beside them in the mall? Who the hell get's pissed off because you make a joke referring to yourself banging someone they have a crush on, making it very VERY clear that it's just a joke? No one sane, that's fucking who. And also, who sane would still be friends with someone who lies to them (directly to their face, by the way) and goes off with their Ex-Boyfriend like they were best pals ever, and treats everyone like shit? No one, that's who. I have NEVER done anything like that, EVER, yet I'm still seen as the bitchy one, and that person who treated them like shit still get's a better place in their life than me. That's just CRAZYNESS. I'm not fucking doing it anymore. I've made a promise to myself, there will be NO more drama. Of any kind, ever. If anyone puts me in a position on a daily basis where I have to hear about drama or be involved with it, I will NOT talk to them anymore. I’m proving that now by completely cutting those people out of my life. I don’t deserve to be looked down on when my friendship was so strong and so fucking decent, that I would never DREAM of doing half of the things the other person has to them. It’s mind blowing how much none of this is sane. So, I’m done. I loved them both like brother and sister. Hell, one of them doesn’t surprise me, him calling me a piece of shit. I know he always really thought that, and I know he always meant all of those things he called me, because he’s a shitty human being like that, corrupted by his out of their damn mind parents, and a general little snobby spoiled gay boy who has no other friends because he’s so fucking pathetic. Really, who the hell hasn’t had a normal relationship with ANYONE in who fucking knows how long because he’s too scared of his Mamma? Sooner or later, I would stop blaming the town I’m in and just accept that everyone around me that even acts nice, wouldn’t even notice me if I wasn’t gay. Jesus Christ, it makes me SO mad to think of the disrespectful and hurtful stupid SHITTY things he said down his nose to me. That is FINE. When he gets AIDS, he better not come crawling to me to speak at his funeral. My friends aren’t there for me anymore emotionally, and that’s fine, I have Rumfelt. Greene and me are now pretty good friends. I mean, sitting on his bed stuffing as many nose plugs as we can up our nose is pretty fun. I discovered if you put enough it looks like a mustache. He’s not my best friend or anything, but it’s nice to have at least a friend outside of my boyfriend.
Alright, enough of that. :P
I’m getting calmer, more mellow. All around less angry. Though you couldn’t tell from that little rant above, it’s true. Me and my mom said our peace to each other. I told her how much a piece of shit she was, she told me how big of one I was. I told her she could suck my dick, she stood there and cryed. I kicked her out of the lobby of where I work, she left. The end. So, there’s the drama of it all. Blah blah. My dad still hasn’t called me or anything, but what else is new. I miss him very much but I can’t fight to have a place in my dad’s life. It’s too much work. Watch CKY3, it’s pretty much the funniest shit ever. Mustand Man makes me laugh hard, and BAM looks very good in the Beast Man Video.
TATTOOS NEXT WEEKEND. YEAH.
I have a tan, for the first time EVER. It’s really nice actually. I’ve lost a few. I’m going to do something awesome with my hair, I just don’t know what yet, haha. I’m honest to god thinking about rainbow streaks, which would be the shit. Expensive as HELL, but the shit. I know Mindy could do it, she’s absolutely awesome.
My car is kinda acting funny and it makes me nervous. I’ve gone over everything that it might possibly be and I can’t really find what it is that’s making it do it. When it dropps down to first gear, or I’m going up a hill, it seems to vibrate like it’s not in gear. It mostly happens when I get down to about a Quarter of gas left. Weird, huh? Who the hell knows.
I’ve been going up to Rumfelt’s Uncle with him, and his little cousin Sabrina is cute as hell. I put make up on her, taken her to bible school, I bring her stuff. She’s just a cute girl. His uncle and his aunt are both nice, it just makes me sad that some people try to take advantage of his Uncle. Whatever, it’s none of my business.
I’ve gone through TWO road checks in a matter of two weeks, both when I happen to not have my license on me. I had to send it in to get a new social security card, so the fuckin’ cops had to look me up. One almost ran over me pulling behind me to check my license, because right before the road check is where Rumfelt’s uncle’s house is. So we pulled in. He thought we were avoiding the road check. We wasn’t, duh, but he insisted on catching us red handed…..turning into a driveway. He felt like a retard, he had to of.
I lost $200 in Asheville with Greene and Rumfelt going to see Hostel 2. I hope whoever has my fucking money chokes on it. J
I love Rumfelt. I love him a lot. I also love the fact that he’s sweet enough to bring me food while I’m at work. Seriously. I LOVE HIM. :3
Yeah, I’m happy. Life is good, life is happy. I miss Mega, and I miss some of my old life, but fuck it. Things are still good. Life sucks, blah blah, I’m sick of that shit. It could be worse. THINGS ARE FINE.
I’m done. I’ll write more when I have more to write. :D
XOXO
-P
Music: Tanning Beds humming.
Mood:
(Mellow)
So, we had our final band concert last night. I cryed, not in the little dot your eyes and smile kind of way, but in the full on gross looking way that makes people feel awkward. I did it mostly when I got home, but none the less I did. We gave Mr. Drum a card. Yeah, I know that dosn't sound like much, but we also gave him $40 to go and see Pirates 3. It was quite a task actually because I had to get every band member to sign it in one day. Andrew wouldn't do it; I really don't know why but either way it got done, blah blah.
I had a really terrible dream that me and Rumfelt were driving in my car on red hill, we came around into a curve and a huge truck hit the car. In my dream through my eyes I kind of closed them really tight and almost saw inside my eyes the car turning upside down. Then, when I opened them I looked over into the eyes of Rumfelt and he was just...dead. He had blood allover his mouth and in his hair. He had his arm broken and his body was hanging limp inside the seat belt. I freaked out lets just say. Something like that is truely upsetting, yah know?
Looking at my yearbook almost makes me cry, I really don't know why, maybe it's because I know this is my last year book I'll ever get, theres so much love written on the insides, and I'm just kinda happy about having things written to me. I like feeling loved just like the next person, so sue me. By the way, if your reading this and want to sign my year book (if you go to my school, retards) then just tell me and I'll give it to you.
I've graduated! I'm now an adult, or whatever in hell you want to call it. Graduation is kind of gay though because I was burning up in the big purple moo moo they gave us to wear and I was just sitting there sweating. Really gross, seriously. Dexie played a really pretty song on violin for the entire place and I was proud of him. Nonni actually didn't end up wailing and screaming, rolling around. She cryed as soon as we woke up though, and continued until we walked in. I had to sit beside Bow Webb and he had a huge nasty burn scar on his upper arm and kept absently rubbing it on me. When I relised what it was I almost vomited friday morning. We had to practice alot, because apparently people can't just walk and sit down, nooo, we have to spend two days for two hours walking around and sitting. It wasn't that big of a deal. Senior breakfast was cool, I stole a bunch of food for my friends because they wern't allowed to eat it being juniors and all, but I smuggled some to them just in time for the Authority figures to say it was ok for them to get some. REALLY pissed off, I worked really hard to steal that food.
Pictures of Nick slapping Kasey's goat "Oreo" are some of the things I'm going to have to get on the web. XD
Working sucks, but I guess you gotta do it. All my friends and everyone is always working, even Rumfelt. It kind of depresses me because I want to hang out like the old days, then I remember it's not the old days and I have to grow up and play "Adult" :( I just want to hang out and play video games with my best friends.
Nonni went absolutely STUPID Saturday night, as well did Dexie. Myself included. None the less we ended up driveing around buladean,then driveing up the Mountain to meet Brandon at 3 in the morning. He finely showed up after we got chased up the moutain by some rabid truck driveing redneck. I could of killed him, really I could have. Then Steven his cousin was absolutely bombed, so Brandon was pissed off. Needless to say we didn't hang out with Brandon too long, he wanted to go to bed so we left.
I'm getting tan, working at a tanning salon is really cool, because you get free tanning. It makes me happy. Rumfelt came in a little while ago and said hello, then Kasey did too.
WELL it seems that I have H. Pielorie. It's a stomach condition where the lineing of your stomach seems flamed and irritated, it leads to stomach olsers and bleeding of the stomach. It's the reason I've been so sick for so long. None of my other doctors ever cought it, but I'm going to a new one named Quinn who happend to of blood tested me and found it.
Oh, and that's a story on it's own. I got my blood taken a little while ago and I went psycho. I told this poor old lady that I was going to punch her. This poor old lady at the Bakersville Clinic begged me not to and kept on flinching every time that I would suck breath in or wiggle. I have a huge phobia of getting blood taken. I know that sounds stupid with all the piercings that I have, but it's a bit different when you stick some medal into flesh and it's a hole, it's another story when they're sticking a needle into your blood flow. Also, it dosn't bother anyone but me. I can watch other people have it done, hell I can even do it, but try doing it to me and I will go ape shit and more than likely punch you.
I had to have my Kidney's screened and checked from where I did all of those pills. They said amazeingly my Kidney's and liver were absolutely fine and that I should be glad I didn't do any damage. Yeah, I guess so. But let's just try not to make me sound like such a damn Junkie. Whatever....god.
I'm making a layout site, sooo...yeah. Pretty cool, I take requests, blah blah blah. Whatever. I think that James my good friend is coming up for the summer from his dad's house on the beach. I didn't get to see him last time he was up, me and him had both tryed to find eachothers phone numbers for like, two weeks before he got here and a little after. James is a cool dude, and a total homie, he was attached to my hip for an entire year. When he moved it was really sad. I remember having a slight crush on him for a while, but now it's just brotherly love. He's cool, seriously. XD I can ramble on with some stories.
The band cookout at Bradragen was fuckin' awesome. Midge playing kitty made me laugh my ass off. Andrew "The cubin gangster" was angerly spinned on the mary-go-round until he almost vomited then when he tryed to run away from MIdge he fell face first into the ground. We got it on VIDEO, ha.
I'll be driving again really soon. Which rocks, and now if I give you a ride, you pay me money! :) How bitchy is THAT?
I'll be getting a tattoo in 15 days. HAR. My myspace background is what I'm going to get. Two skulls kissing to make a heart, on each collar bone. Oh buddy bud.
My birthday is in 10 days!!!
Music: Amy Winehouse - Rehab
Mood:
(HAPPY!)
HOLY FUCKIN' FRUIT LOOPS! We won FIRST bitches. First at our band competition. Not only that, but we got superior. In bandie language? We got the top of the top. We worked hard and we deserved it. The secound time in TWENTY YEARS.
Anyways, I'm happy. The band trip was fun as hell. The trip down there I was absolutely dead from the neck up asleep. I slept the entire way there, and didn't hardly eat because I was refuseing to eat fast food. I can't eat that shit when my stomach has been asleep for 9 hours. We got there and swam. I ran head first and took a barreling dive in. Swimming is fun, but there's only so much you can do, so we went back up to the room. Me, Kasey, Nonni, and Ginny roomed together. Our rooms were connected to Ashlyn's room with four other girls in it. So we spent most of the night in the same room. Blah blah, we had our competition, I sweated almost through my uniform in 94 degree weather, blah blah, I have scars on my hips from my damn lame assed quad carrier. We went to universal studios, Island of Adventures, then we came home. I bought up a bunch of shit and pretty much cleaned out any and every place of anything remotely Hello Kitty. :)
So I'm home.
My birthday is in less than a month. For my birthday my car will be fixed, and I'll be a drivein' fool once again. No more bumming rides from Rumfelt, Nonni, Dexie, or Brandon. Speaking of, Poor Brandon. I LOVE YOU, HOMIE. You brought me Pizza, and drinks, and more pizza, and food, and I love you majorly for it. Accept David stole half of it and I had to beat Thomas half to death to try to get him off the other slices.
I don't even know right now if I'm going to graduate. Who in fuck knows, who in fuck cares, blah blah, yeah yeah. I'm sick of getting shit on constantly about my grades and how I "Just don't seem to care too much". YES, I care. I just don't want to do anything. Oh yeah, did I mention that:
I'M OFF PROBATION?!
Yeah, well I am. Haha. It kicks some major ass.
My sister opened up a Tanning bed place. It makes me happy because I've been laying in the tanning bed for free. Yayness.
Tam8poNPop8siclE: So. Yeah. Ass sex. What of it?
Pirwzwhomper: depends on the ass, really
Tam8poNPop8siclE: ....So. No gross fat chick anal sex.
Pirwzwhomper: doesn't depend on weight really
Tam8poNPop8siclE: I was getting ready to say, too bad for me then. XD
My friend! I wish he would strike his blog back up or start calling me again. *cough HACK*fucker*HACKKKK*.
Apparently everyone is convinced that I'm some nasty knob slobbing whore for always being around dudes at school. Cool, just what I always wanted. Rumors spread at my expense. Well, to all you cock swallowing bitches:
SUCK MY LEFT LIP.
My FRIENDS and I are none of your damn business, Nick and Brandon are always around me because that's what best friends are like, not being we're dateing. I don't understand the people at my school. I get at least six girls or guys a day asking me if I'm going out with either Brandon or Nick. I'm not. Shut up. I'm dateing Rumfelt. Ask him.
So, apparently Matt is a cool guy and he's cool to talk to. I thought I would hate him but he's in my Techmath class and we get along pretty good. I like it when people suprise me by not being cum guzzlers.
SUMMER WON PROM QUEEN. I love Summer, and the fact that a cool chick won prom queen. I was there, decked out in a strapless green dress, no piercings, hair done, and no extreme makeup. It kind of pissed me off though because people kept going "OH MY GOD, you like, actually, like, LOOK PRETTY! LIKE OMGGGGGG!!!" like the rest of the time I was disgusting. Even Hopson said that I looked very pretty, that he respected how I dress, but I was much more pretty without all of those picercings and all that garbage. It kind of hurt my feelings. So I got anti-social and pissed off, which sparked the fire for me to almost get in, count them, TWO fights in one hour. One with a snotty little bitch who has had it comeing for I don't know how long and yes this bitch knows just who she is, and another jock asshole who won't let my friends have a good prom because he's closed minded (way damn too conserned about gay people for it to be normal) prick. Both I was to the point of almost strangleing. OF CORSE Brandon didn't come, who was going to be my date. Rumfelt couldn't come either, who I wanted to go with me first but he got denied. Then Brandon decited that he didn't want to go and spend all that money so I just said fuck it and went with my homies and myself.
Tattoos you ask? Why yes, I will be getting a tattoo for my birthday, how nice of you to ask.
FUCKINGBITCH;sjf;aslkdjflaksjf;sdfasdf
My back hurts, I'm failing my classes, but the good news is that Mr. Becher with the comb over gave me two ring pops because I'm not mentaly retarded and got some of his riddles while the rest of my Tech Math class sat there and drooled like sheep dogs. :)
Paul got a girlfriend and completely forgot about me. He hasn't called me or hung out with me in forever. It kinda sucks because he's my buddy, but that's the bad thing about having alot of guy friends. Girls will still hang out with you, guys just completely ignore you because they're girlfriends will get mad that your hanging out with them. It's pretty gay, but I understand, I've been in a relationship once where I ignored all my friends and just hung out with him so I have no reason to really talk.
I've been watching alot of Kurt Cobain videos. Oh jesus, the flame I have for that man is crazy.
I'm also going to Rape Amber for 1. Bringing me Hello Kitty stuff 2. Wearing a Danzig shirt.
I'm out. The internet is gay now. :)
XOXO
-P
(Fuck time change)
(Aggervated)Music: Watching Cartoons.
Mood:
(Happy)
I've done this before, but I want to do it again. The top guys and girls that I find damn fucking hot. :D
Colin Farrell
Fuck-a-tie-FUCKFUCK. He is damn hot. His accent get's me every single time. I love his look, five oclock shadows are sexy. Mostly though, it's the accent. :)

Gerard Way
Yeah, I know. My Chemical Romance gayness. But this picture, I saw it and I swear to GOD my stomach ended up in my vagina. I love LOVE this picture. MMz.

Billie armstrong
Holy GOD. Yeah. I would tap that. NO, he's not gay. He's got kids. I love his eyes, eyeliner is god.

Trent Reznor
Comeon now. You actually thought I wouldn't put him in, the kind of bondage? I really really love a guy who can strap on some bondage gear and talk about fucking me like an animal. Jesus.

Marilyn Manson
Yeah, he dosn't look very hot with all that damn makeup on, but with it off he's very damn hot. :)

Johnny Depp
Yeah, so you thought that Johnny Depp wouldn't be on here? What are you, fucking retarded? He's amazeing, sexy, and I would give anything at any time just to look at his penis. :)

Ville Vallo
God, looking at him makes my stomach do weird things. It's weird though, off camra the boy is ugly as hell. Videos and pictures, he's beautiful. Hmm. More than likely fake, but who cares, he's good to look at.

Sid Vicious
Damn. DAMN. One of the oldest stories in the book. Sid Vicious is somewhat of a teen crush of mine. Almost like those little girls looking at Hanson on posters and shit.

James Dean
The classic sexy man. Really they'res nothing I can say about him that hasn't already been said, so hey.
Anthony Kiedis
Wow. In most of his pictures, he looks gross. Mostly his music makes me so attracted to him, as strange as that is.

Justin Sane
Something about punk guys makes me hot as fucking hell. Lead singer of Anti-Flag, oh yeah.


Daniel Radcliff (Harry Potter)

Benji Madden
God, I hate myself for likeing such scene and dumb assed guys. That's why I'm not shallow though. The reason that you don't see me with these people, is because I HATE THEM. I just want to fuck them. There's a difference. Seriously.

Davey Havok
HAHAH. AFI is gay. :) Mmm, I wanna bang him.

Jade Puget
Usually Asians are gross. HA, his name is Jade. That sounds like a dragqueen. :)

Rupert Grint (Ron Weasley)

Kurt Cobain
Ahhh, and now for my favorite. The center of my puddle of lust. Kurt FUCKING Cobain. <3<3<3
Alright, now for my chick section, which is much smaller.

Fiona Apple
Dark, White, yet sexy. This bitch has alot of Emotion. And she's hot.

Courtney Love
GOD, I hate her so much, and I hate myself for wanting to do her.

Angelina Jolie
What else can I say about the sexiest woman on earth? She's sexy, dark, and she would crack your ass with a whip for no reason at all.
Marilyn Monroe
The queen of fucking around. Only Marilyn Monroe could make a President unbutton his pants back in that day. Clinton dosn't count, he would fuck a warm body.

Bettie Page
What, are you kidding? Bondage queen, sexy as hell. This bitch is HOT.

Dita Von Teese
Marilyn Mansons girlfriend. She's fucking awesome, and the modern day pinup girl. Very nice.

Tyra Banks
Yes, how damn generic of me. But I can't help it.

Kirsten Dunst
Something about her really is hot, I don't know what it is. I like it though. She was a great actress even as a child.

Lindsay Lohan
......Jesus god. WOW. I watched Mean Girls, and damnit. HER BOOBS ARE REAL. Yes, they are. It's called Puberty.
Well, thats my list. I feel better now. :) Hope you do too. ;D
XO
(Bored)Music: Slayer - War Ensemble
Mood:
(I gotta pee)
Well, long time no write, eh? My life dosn't seem to be that intresting to me or anyone else, so I didn't really feel the need to write anything. I can seem to go on and on for pages about NOTHING at all and mutter about random shit that really dosn't make a bit of sence. My spelling sucks, but my grammar rocks the cock. Whatelse? Oh. Mega got in a car wreck. Totaled her car. I was supose to be with her. Aint that a bitch?
I'm going to my daddy's house this weekend. I'm a tad bit nervous because I havn't seen him sence I got busted. I'm bringing Dexter with me. Maybe that will make things a little less stressed. Dosn't matter though, me and my Daddy could get along no matter what. Learning all thease traits I have from him and learning more about him from mom makes me happy. Like my strange habbit of chewing on plastic? Guess who I got that from. Correct.
I'm pretty much obsessed with PeeWee's Playhouse. I want ANY sort of T-shirt from the show. I get excited when it comes on. I'm a loser.
So, school started. Things happend. Me and Rumfelt broke it off (again) and I'm going out with a beautiful blonde babe named Dallas. I call him Dallas Texas, and make random funny jokes about how "I wanna take a trip to Dallas". He's mine. No touchie. He came and watched me play drums the other night. I liked having his company, and he makes me laugh. He complimented me, and said really really nice things to me. He touches my hair and I almost fall in the floor like a 300 pound woman with Narcolepsy. Things are nice. I like smileing alot.
Paulie pocket hasn't been back in town, and I miss him. I miss having his non-stupid-non-fucking-retarded personality around. I wish I didn't live on the butthole-...no make that inside the butthole of the earth. Things would be so much easier. Mega and me are talking about moving to Seattle after we graduate. I'm thinking that I'll do it. Yeah. I will. Because that kind of shit will rock. I'm just really afraid that me and my homies won't get to talk anymore. I KNOW me and Mega will stay in contact. But, with everyone else? Who knows.
Ryan and Lindsey broke up. I've talked to the poor guy enough on the phone to kill someone, and you could drown in the ammount of letters I've written him lately. I feel bad, like I need to give him something to make him happy. I've been through it, everyone has, it sucks for a little while, but then you forget why your sad and get on with things. I don't know if Ryan's case will be that easy. He was, after all, obsessed and completely in love. Mind-you, breaking up wasn't in his future, or so he thought until she broke up with him. He was crushed, I was shocked, I wanted to hug him so hard he vomited, I almost have a few times. I worry about my friends way too much. But when it comes to my Best Friends, I feel even more worried. Poor Rypoop.
Me and Ryan. Wow. What an intresting angle and all. I didn't have much time to take the picture, so I didn't make a cool enough face. I wanted to though, bad. :(
My webshots album, and my photobucket album are the shit. If you don't know what to do to look at my photobucket album, then leave me a comment or e-mail me and I'll fill you in. Trust me. It's worth it. :)
Dallas wasn't at school today. That makes me very nervous. I wonder what is going on. My mom just saw him last night. He came over and ate part of his dinner with her. How dorky, haha.
Playing quads now seems like a talent I've had all my life. I feel like I know exactly how to play them, and I always have. Trust me, I havn't. I use to suck balls, badly, but I've come up in this world just a tad. Ok. Let's face it. I'm radder than glitter. People should come watch me play at football games. It's pretty cool to watch, or at least, I think so. Haha. I kind of go crazy just a little. But, I love it so much. Me and Ryan ROCK. ROCKKKKKKKKK. At Ninja Turtles, and Whipe out. It's really sexy. HA.
I have this strange new obsession with head bands. I don't really know why, I guess I'm just a freak. I really don't know.
I pierced Mega's nose. Cool stuff. Pictures anyone?

OH SNAP.
I got my licence taken. From getting kicked out of school, apparently the school is able to take my licence. It pisses me off but what can I do. I would of probley lost them anyways. I got a speeding ticket. A bad speeding ticket. 22 miles over the speedlimit. And I have to go to court. Use to, me and mega would debate over which one of our cars we were going to take, now? HA. We're lucky if we GET a ride.
All the sudden, I feel really gay.
XOXO
-Whore